Anally destroyed and then pissed on?!

So I’m slowly starting to wonder if this is all still normal for me?! I have to ask myself whether I’m addicted to such perverted sex encounters. Should I perhaps “lie down on the couch” and talk to a professional about it? I also have the feeling that these encounters are becoming more and more perverse, taboo-free and harder?! What do you think? Have I exaggerated again?